Monday, August 30, 2010
New Season
Now to get to the negative/whiny part. While watching "forest Gump" I was reminded of the line, "I may be stupid, but i know what love is." This summer, I found love. I didn't find my love this summer, but I figured out what the feeling of love means to me. The girl that I can't talk to when I'm around. The girl that makes my heart beat out of my chest every time I think about her. The girl that has been burned by every man she's ever trusted but still smiles at me and pretends that everything is alright. This girl is the one I love. But I messed up. I can't tell her how I really feel. Because I got physical with her friend. Now the unwritten "girl code" combined with my own morals won't let me hurt her like every other guy she has loved has. But that doesn't change my feelings for her. As far as she knows, we are still just friends, but every time she looks at me, I feel like she reads my soul. Her piercing blue eyes break me down, and I put on the same fake smile she wears, just to get by.
Cliche or not, this is my predicament. I'm hoping that one day this will just be a funny and pathetic memory, but until then this is my life. Take it, or leave it.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
sorry
Monday, May 3, 2010
Dawn Patrol Poem
Dawn Patrol
By: Michael Slider
The stark grey clouds break into a flaming show of purple and orange,
Illuminating the vast sands and waters of the mighty Pacific.
Four souls in the sand, preparing for the day’s adventure,
Silence except for the crashing white water against the shore.
The four charge in, prepared to take on the mighty seas,
Their foam boards in hand, the water is cold.
Under the first wave and over the next, paddle the four,
Farther they swim to meet the break of the wave.
The bottle green water remains glassy between the sets,
An eerie sign of what is to come.
The horizon gives way to an approaching wall of blue, green, grey
The peak is strong, the four are ready.
One takes the lead, paddling forward with strength and speed,
Trying his best to out swim the approaching wave.
The right breaking wave barrels The One as his exit is closed off,
Sucked under with the deafining gurgling sound ringing in his ear.
Flipping, thrashing, groping, The One struggles to right himself and escape the watery grave,
No sight, no sound and no breath in his lungs to finish the fight.
Panic overtakes, and thoughts of loved ones left alone creep into the head of The One,
Finally after what feels like an eternitny, the feet of The One strike the cold sand below.
Quickly bursting through the dark abyiss and into the light, the cold air piecring his lungs,
Wiping the water from his eyes and clearing his throat from the previous battle against the elements.
The One rejoins the others, whose whoops and cries are a welcomed sound,
The glassy green settles back and the four wait for another round with the wall of blue, green, grey
The gulls fly overhead and a dolphin emerges to great the day and the four,
Who are blessed to belong to a beautiful scene.
An act of worship, the four stay out, conquering the undulating watery walls,
Remembering the fear and using it enhance the next ride.
The four charge ahead, foam boards in hand,
Patrolling the dawn and cutting the walls of blue, green, grey.